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says what she feels..
Monday, August 22, 2005
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| :: Just some random thoughts
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It has been a while since I last blogged. Been busy with work and other stuff as usual. Since I spend so much more time in the office instead of waitressing and there's simply nothing interesting to talk about at my office, it's best not to blog for the sake of blogging and bore people to death with the details of the next report I have to submit.
Anyway, the only things I consider interesting are interacting with people and observing all the funny stuff. Sure, I interact with people at the office too but only through email and the phone. The only people who would talk to me face to face are the accountants whom I consider as one of the most stupid departments I have ever encountered. All they know is crunch numbers and none, none of them knows how to navigate their way through a simple Excel worksheet. Morons! I'm the one to go to for feeder database rates, not a bloody computer technician to answer all your idiotic questions. Do they think that I'm so free as to teach them how to use a computer?
Idiotic accountants aside, I like my job since its so challenging and all. Freebies and food galore! I get to eat at my desk, anytime I want. Haha. I sure can't eat on the job while waitressing.
Just some random thoughts. What you read above is just crap I thought on the spur of the moment, if you prefer to call it an appeitizer, you can. Now for the main entry.
Of course it has something to do with Nick. My whole world revolves around him didn't you hear? =)
Spent the whole of Saturday with him...working. I like working at GWP but I lurve it even more when he's around. I call it 'my other workplace'. You would think that since I had my Prince Charming around, it would be a day of bliss and content. It turned out to be...kind of weird.
Ok, I got a sore throat suddenly Friday evening. By Saturday morning, half my voice was gone. Insert corny joke made by Hotshot Lawyer here. What do you know? Next, a bunch of Uni guys, not including the abovementioned Diamond Bachelors(DB for short) asked me whether I was, ahem, still a virgin. Losing my voice, virgin. Geddit? Ok, so Uni guys all have a very unique sense of humour. They do things sometimes that makes you question their intellignence and maturity sometimes. Not to mention the sanity of the good admission people who let them get into Uni in the first place.
So, while I was deciding whether to a)laugh, b)cry, c)do both or d)make them experience some serious pain. They took it as a non-denial, which means I'm a, for the lack of a better word, non-virgin. Why can they take it as a non-confirmation?
Anyway, in their mind they already decided I wasn't one. They were lucky they chose a time to tell me that when I was very busy and thus had no time to inflict extreme physical pain on them. Plus, I still had a good and long flirting session with one of the DBs fresh in my memory(no prizes for guessing who) so I was in an extremely good mood.
I mean, do I look like a non-virgin? Can people even tell from the peron's face? Is it normal social behaviour nowadays to go around asking people whether they are still virgins? Why would anyone want to know whether I was still one? Very amused at being asked this question despite telling myself that the logical reaction would be to appear extremely pissed. Most importantly, the 64 million dollar question should be: Do I look like I would enjoy sex? Not before, not now, probably never. Nope, the Government can count me out when awarding Baby Bonuses and I will still be happy. Not when the consequences of having sex could be carrying a foetus inside of you for 9 months and at the end of it trying to squeeze it out from you-know-where then the real pain begins. Nope, no can do. Even had the same bunch of guys ask me where the baby comes out and whether it hurts. Well, it would be akin to asking whether the guys are in pain whenever someone kicks them in the balls. Stupid question right?
Especially after thewhole fiasco with the stalker, formerly known as my ex. After a lot of thinking on that subject, even though I may like Nick very much, I don't think that I'll be getting into another relationship anytime soon.
I've been burned so many times and yet I have not found THE ONE. The one that I can like for a reasonable amount of time. Yes, I'm aware that I can like a guy a lot one day and dump him the next. Maybe it's my retribution liking the one guy I could never get cause his heart belongs to another girl who doesn't appreciate him. Really hope that one day he would see me as more than just good friends and work buddies who like to confide and suan each other, often in the same sentence. But he keeps giving me all these mixed signals. One moment, he would show the potential of being a caring BF and next, cold and aloof. I wish that he would just come outright and say that he would never date a girl from GWP cause I would never have the guts to tell a guy to the face that I like him. Or maybe it's cause I'm so used to being chased after by guys. Haha.
Come to think of it, I've worked with all of my exes at one point or another. Technically, the stalker was my classmate but we got together while at the end of our attachment. Hopefully tradition will hold. I'll try not to lose hope.
Been having all sorts of other problems as well lately. It could be due to my 'very easygoing and extrovert' personality at work that a lot of people would tell me about their problems. Which is not a good idea if I happen to dislike or worse, hate you since chances are, I will spill it all out to someone eventually no matter how 'hard' I'll try to keep it. Don't believe me? Read this excellent example. As for the rest, don't worry, I'll take your secrets to the grave;P
Anyway, even when I'm not in the mood for gossiping(which is quite often nowadays since I rarely at GWP anymore), people would flock to me like birds to a feather. I just can't get it, do I look like Aunt Agony/Aggie/Angie/whatever to you? My reputation precedes me, I guess. Even though I already tui chu jiang hu le. Haha. Sometimes it gets to a point when too much info isn't good you know? I like the good stuff(read: really scandalous ones involving the B.I.T.C.H for e.g) but I would not be up to it all the freaking time.
Especially in Willie's case, I don't really give a damn(sometimes) when others have done him great wrong or whatever. As long as the person has not done ME wrong, I'm not going to care, nor get indignant, angry on your behalf or sort it out for you. For heaven's sake, be a grown man and act like one lar. Yes, I may be some managers' pet. But just for the record, I'm not the type to snitch on people who have done me no wrong. I don't abuse whatever little power that I have unless the person in question has pissed me off. Then forgive me for being a tattle tale. Even my part-time lover(haha) can't get much info about that thing with caveman out of me.
ZH even asked me on Saturday whether I would 'consider' Willie. Hell no, if I wouldn't even consider him(ZH), I sure wouldn't consider Willie as 'more than friends' cause ZH is more of a DB than Willie is. Plus, I can't stand Willie sometimes. This is so secondary school. ~Help me ask whether so and so likes me can?~ Bleargh. If Willie is entertaining thoughts like this, why can't he ask me outright? If ZH is only guessing, why assume that he's interested in me?
I don't know why guys are so interested in me nowadays. It's like the 'lan tao hua' days back again, only with whole new characters. Why can't I get good 'tao hua' days huh? Doesn't even have to involve N, just Del and some droolicious hunks will do. I'm not fussy. It must be the personality that I display there. It's just that I'm so comfortable with the guys there that I may be flirting with them subconciously and mislead them into thinking that I'm interested or something. Good God, I'm turning into a female version of York! Ravel, the one with the Beng hairdo asked me outright whether he could chase me and hold hands and everything. What era is he living in? The 90s? Who asks this kind of question anymore? Diaoz. I think he's kidding lar, but then again I'll never understand nor empathize with the ways guys express their interest in a girl. I've seen guys like Ron abuse the girls they like, be it verbally or physically. The gesture was sweet though and he is a DB in his own right. Ex Victoria boy leh, don't play play and current NUS Biz student. Er, seem to have a lot of yuan fen with NUS guys hor?
Watched the National Day Rally yesterday for the first time. It was interesting, especially the Taugei Not Enough and Taugei Never Enough Video clips. Go watch it! Super funny! Anyone and everyone who has been in the service industry or received bad service will empathise with the people in it. Personally, I think good service works both ways. It would be virtually impossible for a service staff to remain friendly and cheerful if all the consumer does is to nitpick and be a general pain-in-the-ass. And it would be disgraceful if the consumer is easygoing and not fussy and yet the staff treats them like shit. It takes 2 hands to clap. If the service industry continues to pay its staff low salaries, they must also be prepared for some sort of backlash. Give and take. Raise the pay and you get happy people working for you. Happy staff = Good service. Geddit yet? Yet you get all these people writing to the newspapers and whatnots complaining about the general lack of service in Singapore. I'll bet more than half of these people have never worked in the service industry in their lives. Do you think it will be easy to remain smiling and friendly after working a 9 hr shift? Have some empathy people! Service staff are human too! Can you honestly say that you have never treated like your personal slave or made a service staff feel like shit before? It's called karma, what goes around comes around.
Wow! First time I've written such a long entry(1838, go buy 4D!). Probably never going to happen again. Enjoy it while it lasts=)Labels: GWP
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